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Lonely realizations...

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 19:46:09 -0400

Probably the loneliest thought I’ve ever had (and the scariest because it’s true) is that I don’t really have any good friends. I don’t have anyone that I trust completely. I don’t have anyone that seems like they would care if I was gone… I have friends, but they’re more like people to hang out with to pass the time… And the ones I don’t hang out with I barely talk to…

I just want someone to care about me… And show that they care about me… Is that really too much to ask?

Done...

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 02:49:58 -0400

I just fucking give up… I don’t even know why I try anymore… It all ends the same… My bad points outweigh the good. So why even try…

Depression

Wed, 03 Oct 2012 03:05:02 -0400

Depression has levels… I thought I was at the lowest level, between wanting to kill myself and crying myself to sleep for little/no reason… But apparently theirs even a deeper one… It’s kinda scary that thoughts so morbid have actually gone through my mind…

Why can’t I just shoot myself? Make all the pain go away… All the sadness and feelings...

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 21:40:19 -0400

Why can’t I just shoot myself? Make all the pain go away… All the sadness and feelings just disappear…

Can I just disappear now? D:

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 21:15:47 -0400

Can I just disappear now? D:

It must be nice to say you’re depressed and you’re friends care enough to ask… I...

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 20:48:57 -0400

It must be nice to say you’re depressed and you’re friends care enough to ask… I wish I had that… :(

mistakes...

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 05:51:31 -0400

one of these days, I’m gonna be really tired and I’m gonna call her babe and fuck everything up…

Idk, part of me says that if she can handle me saying “good morning beautiful” every morning, she wouldn’t mind the slip up if that’s all it was…

but another part of me says that calling her beautiful is saying she’s beautiful, whereas calling her babe is like calling her mine… or at least saying that she COULD be mine… and at this point in time, she wouldn’t possibly be my “babe”…

too much thinking going on…

Missed signals...

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 21:31:42 -0400

So many times I’ll be with the girl I’m crazy about and she’ll do or say something that most girls do when they’re flirting or just trying to get you to know that they want to be close to you. I never know what to do in these situations. I don’t want to do something about it and have her get pissed because I crossed any lines… But I REALLY don’t want to miss out just because I was being nice…

It really sucks… Lol

interesting conversations.

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 06:29:01 -0400

I was talking to an ex, and we were talking about how everything started and why she started liking me, then she told me about how it was a trick because I told her that if I could guess the card she picked and make it appear in another color, she had to kiss me. I did it. then she said that I was the best kisser she’s ever kissed, and it just went from there… I love magic.

I’m gonna be better for her. :) I just hope that she...

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 04:07:34 -0400

I’m gonna be better for her. :)

I just hope that she knows it’s all for her… :/

"life is like a bicycle, to keep your balance you must keep moving."

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 12:50:37 -0400

“life is like a bicycle, to keep your balance you must keep moving.”

The way I see it.

Sat, 14 Jul 2012 23:02:24 -0400

You’re either using me, you like me. And you want. This. To be a date, OR you think that friends do a lot more for each other then they actually do… If none of these are right, PLEASE let me know what is…

"It’s all about mind and matter. Those matter don’t mind, and those who mind don’t..."

Sun, 08 Jul 2012 01:59:26 -0400

“It’s all about mind and matter. Those matter don’t mind, and those who mind don’t matter.”

"never explain yourself. You’re friends don’t need it, and your enemies won’t..."

Sun, 08 Jul 2012 01:57:56 -0400

“never explain yourself. You’re friends don’t need it, and your enemies won’t believe you.”

"You’ve got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you’re..."

Tue, 03 Jul 2012 09:38:26 -0400

“You’ve got a lot of choices. If getting out of bed in the morning is a chore and you’re not smiling on a regular basis, try another choice.”

- Steven D. Woodhul

"If you aren’t fired with enthusiasm, you’ll be fired with enthusiasm."

Tue, 03 Jul 2012 08:57:58 -0400

“If you aren’t fired with enthusiasm, you’ll be fired with enthusiasm.”

- Vince Lombardi

why is it that one minute I’m like her best friend and the next I’m like nothing to...

Fri, 29 Jun 2012 02:19:57 -0400

why is it that one minute I’m like her best friend and the next I’m like nothing to her…

REAL relationships.

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 03:07:54 -0400

a REAL relationship consists of give and take between both friends… but lately I feel like all my friends do is take. they mostly only talk to me when they don’t have their own ride to hang out. they never offer gas money, they ask if I can buy them stuff, they ask me to buy things from them, and what do I get in return??? NOTHING!!!

I think that “love” is dead… I think that it disappeared and is never coming...

Tue, 26 Jun 2012 02:18:36 -0400

I think that “love” is dead… I think that it disappeared and is never coming back…

empowerment.

Mon, 25 Jun 2012 03:18:27 -0400

People feel sorry for me. They judge me, and they think they know me. In total honesty, I feel sorry for them. A lady came up to me and asked me if I was ashamed. I replied by saying “ashamed of what?” She told me that meant aren’t I ashamed of being fat, and I realized right then, NO!!! I am NOT ashamed that I’m fat. Why should I be ashamed of something like that?!?!?! FAT is not something to be ashamed of! cruelty, dishonesty, gluttony (look it up, gluttony and “being fat” are totally different). I KNOW who I am! Just because I don’t think of myself the same way you do doesn’t mean you’re right, and it doesn’t mean that I’m right. If people were to learn to let other people live their lives, then everything would be better.